Today's Thanks and Thoughts

First, I am so grateful for your thoughts and good wishes. I feel you out there. I am aware of this bond that we share. If ever there was a driving force pushing me forward in the absence of my partner, Doug, please know that it is you, our family, our friends, and fans.

Yesterday I wrote of loneliness. Today I write of thanks.

I know how lucky I am. I have this huge family surrounding me with lots of love. And an army of friends and fans from all over the world who have been there for me.  Luck doesn't really cover it. It's blessings few men deserve and fewer get to enjoy in this life.

But, I gotta tell you, my loneliness is singularly about those daily calls from Doug, our working together, and sharing EVERYTHING over all these years.

My personal life is spectacular. I hate to say it, but I am enjoying it immensely. My public life, on the other hand, was so tied to Doug. Without him, I kinda want to just let it go. I don't miss performing live like I thought I would during this pandemic. I am bursting at the seams to create and to share. I have so many feelings welled up inside my skull that if I don’t let some of it out I will explode. And I know I am running out of time.

The lonely path forward is a public problem. Do I continue on alone... or let it go?

Not sure. 

I will work through it. A lonely task. I don't have time to find a new Doug.

And frankly, he is irreplaceable.